Well, I haven't done this in a while.
As to why, the list is lengthy and detailed as excuses will be, but in short I just haven't had the motivation to blog since my return to this sunny island. I pretty much spent the first 3 weeks or so hanging around at home, lazing, annoying my sis, or going out for my much-missed hawker food. Oh, I climbed as well, fingers suffering the combined burden of training hiatus and holiday weight gain. Caught up with some friends as well, but many others were bound by work schedules so I'm still waiting to see some ppl I haven't seen in a long time.
When I find the time again I shall relive my travels and detail some of the more interesting summer memories, but for now I must explain the title of this post. Rmb the feeling of having to do holiday homework? Multiply that by any ridiculous positive number and you'll probably get the irritation that's been hovering in my emotional space for the past few weeks.
Ah, and not forgetting summer school. Yea well, the course I'm on right now (yes, now, during summer break) might be a bit too highly intensive and deep for my super-lousy-at-doing-business head, but at least the struggle means that I'm actually trying to learn something useful. So, the course itself is not the problem.
The problem is, that despite my super-inexpertise, I'm somehow having to save my in-game company (in the business simulation run in this course), from bankruptcy on a regular basis. And at times, you wouldn't have known a few other ppl exist in the team.
I feel myself becoming more easily emotional lately. And these emotions are getting increasingly difficult to hide. My demeanor comes from an ability to suppress urges to slap deserving ppl combined with a stoic barrier to quash outbursts. But like using a computer, there's only so much you can compress a file before it can't take it anymore.
No worries, I'm not constantly wanting to slap ppl. It's just this team of mine, and the persons (note the "s") in question. I've been simmering for a while, and I'm glad the course ends today. Key takeaways: beware of (1) slackers (2) untrustworthy ppl (avoid letting them handle/influence decisions!) (3) ppl who just have no idea what's going on even though they think they are working hard enough.
Sighs. Well, at least it's liberating to write again. And I'm gonna climb it off tmr - one good thing that happened this week is that my endurance has increased.
<<ends rant>>
